A lot can happen in just a few days

So, I had to take a little break from blogging since my life suddenly turned upside down in just a matter of days.

I was gonna write about the West Pride parade we had here in Gothenburg. And I had this entire post about it thought out. But as the weekend came, I got busy and life got in the way.

I myself is a part of the LGBTQ+ community and I stand proud of who I am and what I am. I also believe that it’s very important to teach kids about acceptance and what pride is about. So me and the kids went to watch the parade like we do every year. And take part in the festivities.

It was just as amazing as it always is, and I couldn’t be more happier or prouder than having raised two sweet kids who is curious, inquisitive, and accepting that Love is Love.

After the parade, the kids spent the rest of The weekend with their dad, as I went to my mom to just hang out and dye my hair, because let’s face it, I needed to add something new. The finished result truly was spectacular (in lack of better word).

I mean, I was a bit worried it wouldn’t suit me but let me tell y’all, I was excited to see that I actually look good in red.

So anyway, I fix my hair and we have a great time at mom’s place and just relax like I always do when I’m there.

Then comes Monday, and Tuesday. Work is just as it always is.

But my personal life took a tumble and I found myself in having to accept something I feared would happen.

I rather not go into detail what led to what happened or who said what or why things ended the way it did. Me and the person involved have talked it through and agreed to be civil regarding this matter.

Yes I have had moments it feels like I can’t breath, moments where I just wanna curl up and cry until I can’t even produce a single teardrop anymore, moments where I just silently fall apart and everything I am is hanging on a single thread. I love him, I truly do, and nothing can change that. He was my friend, my rock, well basically he was someone who made me feel like I was somebody special.

But sometimes, life doesn’t always work in the ways or plans you have set up and decided on, sometimes it just takes a different route and even if I love him, I could never, and I would never force him to do something he can’t or want to do. I love him too much to force him into feeling something he can’t. I respect him and I am grateful for the time we had together, and I will treasure it as I move forward on my journey in this life.

I’m not saying that I am okay, but I know I will be. I just need time and to focus and reflect on what this have taught me and how to stand up again.

My main focus now is my children and my work, but also to start a new chapter of healing myself.

And the best way to do so is to start with body, and then the mind, and last part would be my soul.

So.. I guess starting with body will have to be getting back into the gym and getting in shape. It’s been too long.

So I made a small purchase of new gear and I have already drawn up my schedule and everything I need in order to start this off on the right foot (pun intended).

And hopefully, some day I’ll be able to look back on this and tell myself, “I made it, I’m okay”

Much love y’all!

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2 thoughts on “A lot can happen in just a few days

  1. Hey beautiful; it’s Lauren (the Ice Queen of Music). I finally got a chance to read through your blog, and it’s been wonderful to see what’s been going on in your life so far.

    I am so sorry you’ve gone through the current change with the person you had become interested in. I had been wondering about that, but I didn’t want to make you relieve any pain by asking you what happened; so I’m glad I found the answer in your blog.

    I just want you to know that I love you, I care for you, you’re beautiful, I’m grateful to know you and be your friend, and I am keeping you in my constant thoughts and prayers, love. I understand and respect that we share different beliefs concerning religion/faith; as a Christian, I want you to know nothing but love from myself and from the God I have always willingly followed and loved. I want you to know that He loves you so much too, and sees all of the hardships you’ve endured. They have not gone unnoticed by Him. I pray that you feel comforted and encouraged during this new season in your life, darling.

    You are an incredibly brave, strong, fearless warrior; you remind me of a Valkyrie 😍. Your strength is an inspiration to me, and I hope you never feel guilty or lessened for the times in your journey that have been dark and difficult.

    You keep on shining with that glorious light that shows whenever you smile and whenever you love on your children, and know that you are loved, you are a treasure, you are valuable, you matter to me and to this world, and I believe and proclaim over you that the best is yet to come. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and personal things with us. I believe that your testimony is going to be something that helps inspire others and bring healing to those who read your blog.

    Love you so much, my friend; you have a special place in my heart. I know we’re across the pond from each other, but I hope someday that I’ll get to meet you in person, give you the biggest hug, and get to spend time with you 🙏🏻❤️🎶

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    1. My dearest Lauren. My sweet queen of music. Once again your heartfelt words touched me and I can’t explain how much it means to me. Thank you ❤️ even if we don’t share the same beliefs, I still highly respect you and i am deeply moved and grateful for the kindness and love you share and to have me in your prayers. I can’t tell you how much that means to me, and that you truly is one of a kind person that has a heart of gold. Thank you for your words and thank you for being my friend and always being there when I struggle. I could write a list ten miles long about how of an amazing and caring friend you are. I wish for us to always be friends, and I hope as well that one day we will meet in person so I can show you how much I truly and wholeheartedly love you as a true friend, and as a sister from another family ❤️ thank you

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